and the world spins madly on

It’s weird to think of how my life is “opposites extreme” at the moment. When I’m with my friends, it’s heaps fun. I smile, I laugh, I don’t give a fuck. And then when I’m all alone…I’m freaking out, on the inside, almost over everything. Kinda feels like I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders sometimes and then it gets hard to breathe.

Earlier, alone in my room, I started making deals with God. I’ll be better. I’ll have faith again. I’ll go to church. I’ll do charity. I’ll clean my room myself. ANYTHING. As long as I get what I’m hoping to get. And while I was making said deals, iTunes started playing the most perfect song just to illustrate the moment: World Spins Madly On by The Weepies.

I’d give anything for peace of mind right now. And I wish I could be with my friends. Always.